I know that some peoples bodies totally just went back to whatever it was before babies....good for you...I don't want to hear about it and I don't care that you look like you did before. This is not about you...as always, it's about ME!
I was devastated about what my body looked like after I gave birth. I can't believe it's almost been 2 years. Anyways, I was at a loss when I saw my post delivery body. A huge loss. Who was that in the mirror? It was my face but fatter, and the body was unrecognizable. There was this weird squishy blob where I used to have a flat stomach. My boobs were enormous, enormous enough to be gross. Who was I?
Fast forward 7 months later....the body was still not the body that I knew and enjoyed looking at 15 months before. The stomach was smaller and not as squishy and my boobs were still big (I nursed Michael for a year). I still did not love it.
Today I'm OK with my body, even satisfied. It was totally worth it to have Michael. He's gorgeous, smart and most importantly he's healthy. I am back to what I was before Michael....sort of. I have stretch marks where there used to be smooth skin, and my boobs are smaller and need A LOT of support. I can't say that I look better than I did a year ago cause I honestly can't recall. I can say that I am not as disappointed as I used to be when I look in the mirror. I think time really does have magical properties. Time has helped me become so familiar with what my body is now. It doesn't sting my ego to see myself. It did bruise my ego right after giving birth but I think it's only because my pre-baby body was still so fresh in my memory.
I still wish for bigger boobs ( I have since I was a teenager so that isn't news), but I know that is easily attainable. I at least have boobs, even if they do need a miracle bra. If I ever feel the need to,i I can buy some new ones. I wasn't ever much of a bikini girl in the first place so that's not really effected.
So, maybe my body got better or maybe my brain go used to seeing my new body. Who knows? Who cares? I am happy with myself and that is more than most people can say. I guess it's not so bad...and most certainly things could be worse.
4 comments:
I am glad you are satisfied with yourself! That is wonderful!
I was totally opposite...after being a huge giant pregnant woman, I was so relieved when the baby was OUT and I could wear a few sizes bigger than normal. I thought I looked GOOOOOD soon after her birth, which is hilarious to me now when I see pictures. I still looked about 6 months pregnant!
NOW I am more unsatisfied than then!
I'm glad you are happy with your body now. Just think you'll have to go through it again if you have another child! That's another reason we wanted kids back to back. Once Chloe can sit upright, the two of them are going jogging several times a week. I want my body back (plus some bigger boobs!).
I was like Katie, and was amazed at how "little" I was right after giving birth. I guess we had different expectations. Of course, Allen brought me back to reality when asking while I still had a big belly TWO DAYS AFTER GIVING BIRTH!
A photographer told me that she had a friend take some nude photos of her before they started trying to have a baby. At the time, I thought that would have been a good idea. Now I think I would just be pissed at how different I look.
I totally feel your pain girl!! You're a mommy though and that makes you more beautiful than you realize!
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